Well I'm still alive. I graduadted from High school. Yay... Okay so I have had the Worst week of my life. Actully it was more of Thursday and Friday being the worst days. On thrusday I figured out my mom's surgery for friday had been cancled. They told her that she should have saw a cardiologist last week when she was cleared to go to Disney with us. It gets worse. Durring that same day I got into a fight with my boyfriend. It was mostly my fault because I had so much emotion built up that I took it out on the one person I never wanted to hurt. The fight lasted for an hour. Then I stopped texting him for five minuets. (yes we had a fight over a text) Then I felt so guilty that I appologized. We both agrred that we were both out of line and I thought everything was okay agian.... But I was wrong... I asked him in the begining of this week if he would come over on Friday because I didn't want to be alone... Even though my mom's surgery wasn't happing anymore he still came over. At first I didn't think that anything was wrong because he brought me food and a little stuffed pickachu. We went back to my/sister's room we just started to talk. At first it was a pleasant conversation but I could tell something was wrong with him. He wasn't disrespectful, or nasty about it which was good. But I tried to get him to change his mind. Now I know that's a big no no when a guy dumps you, but it hurt. We were doing so well for almost 6 months. We rarely faught. We would have went to the eneds of the earth for each other. He kept telling me that he didn't feel that his love wasn't as strong as it was. I kept asking what are you talking about? We are still fine. Then it hit me... That fight... It was my fault... I was pushing him away. We sat in that room for 5 hours. My parent's weren't home for half of it. Mainly the last half. He told me that he promised he was going to see some freinds that lived near me before he left. When he went to leave I kept wispering please don't leave me...As I watched him walk out my door way I started to cry uncontrolably. I didn't just cry...I wailed. I messaged my two best friends and the one was having problems of her own but she felt so bad for me. The other rushed to my house in 5 minuets. He sat with me in my living room and he tried making me feel better. It worked actully. He took my mind off of the break up in an instant. But the funny thing was not even an hour after my boyfriend broke up with me i got a text "hey" from him. My friend looked at me and told me to awnser him to see what he wanted. So I sent back hi and I he sent back that he was walking back down my street because he realized that he had made a huge mistake. I Didn't know what to say or do. I showed my friend and he and I sat on my couch dumfounded. So I called my other friend up and I told her about what had just happened. I watched him walk down my driveway and I started to get pissed. I let him come back into the house and he sat on my couch. I told him that I spent 5 hours crying and pleaing to him to stay with me, and it took him an hour to figure out that very same thing! I didn't know wether to Kick him or Kiss him. I still don't feel okay about the whole thing even though we are togther again. I can't forget the pain.
Anyway that's the whole shabang. Sorry if I bored you with my drama. Just thought I would give you an update.
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